It’s an amazing feeling to fall in love, especially when you have lost faith in your own ability to even do so. But there is an uncanny feeling that comes with it, perhaps because of age, that it’s not real or that you have already lost it even as you feel it.
It’s hard to tell though because the person you care about may show you affection as well, even in the smallest ways. Maybe it is real. Maybe it’s just a limit created by society and you are both trapped. Maybe it’s fear or authority or rebellion that causes you to accept the anxiety.
Yes, love means nothing in the long run, but what does? In the short run, it’s all we truly have. Might as well pursue it, right? Maybe.